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I hate being sick. I’ve got vertigo again. I freaking HATE vertigo!!!! I’ve had it for about 2 weeks now, hoping that it would go away on its own. Well, yesterday, it got so bad that I couldn’t barely function (trouble walking, talking, focusing, all the good stuff a teacher needs to be able to do). Steph and I went to Tom Thumb during 4th period to get a gift card for a friend, and I actually miscalculated where the door was because everything was so wobbly. Almost damn near walked into the wall. Finally I went to our school nurse (Karen, who is totally awesome), and she checked me out. Told me that I definitely had some fluid in my ears, and that it was finally time to break down and go to the doctor. Since I was feeling so crappy I decided to have Aubrey watch my last block and went to see the doctor. Although, I probably should have just stayed at school. I left early because I was hoping to get to see the doctor asap. Well, I did CareNow, checked in online, but still didn’t get to see anyone until nearly 5:30. But it is probably a good thing that I left early since I was doing so badly at school.

And that is what is so crappy about vertigo. It isn’t dizziness. Alot people think it is just that you get dizzy (and mistakenly, dizzy b/c of heights, or something like that.) Vertigo is an specific type of ear infection, and so with it you get alot of sinus pressure and build up. It sucks because there is no congestion whatsoever. That’s why the first time I had it, I had no idea what the hell was happening to me. At least this time around there has been no echoing in my ears like there was the first time, but my ears do hurt kind of bad. What REALLY sucks is that I get motion sickness pretty bad even when I’m not sick. Being dizzy all the time now just means that I ALSO have motion sickness too! So lets add some mild nausea on top of that. All in all, though, it isn’t as bad as last year. At least this year I can actually read (which I had trouble with last year). Walking and driving were kind of rough, though. But I am not medicated up, which is always good. This may seem like a strange thing to be happy about, but the medication makes me REALLY tired. I’ve been so stressed out and always on the go go go with moving and what not that I’m really looking forward to my next dosage of meds here in about 40 minutes. Gonna (finally!) get some good sleep!

Speaking of apartment, I’m 99% finished! Woot! I still lack hanging some stuff on the walls, some other little odds and ends here, but I’m almost done. I think I over did it trying to get stuff put away or in the right place. I’m like that though. Once I have a goal I’m trying to accomplish, I’m like a dog with my teeth sunk in the mailman’s butt: I’m not letting go until my job is done. Sometimes…not so good. I even remember Sherry telling me while we were moving to just stop and rest for a second. I just couldn’t though. Just wanted keep trucking till everything was done. I tried to force myself to keep a slow pace while I unpacked stuff, but I had a goal and I wanted to get it done! So I think part of why my medical problems got worse is I never allowed my self time to recuperate. Okay, nature. Lesson learned.

On a completely different side note, now that I am on my own, and totally responsible for me, I’m going to really try to change my diet to something much more healthy. More fruits and veggies. Less bad stuff. One thing that I’ve tired is some Lean Cuisine meals. I was kind of leery of them at first, but I have to say, not too shabby!! I tried one last night, and that (only about 270 calories) and an apple did it for my meal, with a frozen fruit bar about an hour later. Super tasty! And filling to boot!

Okay, my brain is starting to shut down. I think I’m gonna go pop some pills and hit the sack!